Our Song

It's nearly dusk, we are both exhausted from a long day of packing, driving, pitstops and a motion sick child. We no longer can find a radio station without static and with wearing patience you throw on the iPod that hasn't been updated in years. You choose an old favourite. A knowing smile spreads across your face, as we burst into song. As I sit there with my hand held in yours, I try to think of what our song is. Waves of memories come back to me. All the music that has carried us through the different stages of our life together.

Would it be that last week of summer, when you asked me to be your girlfriend? Wasn't it the B.O.B presents: The Adventures of Bobby Ray album that you would put on repeat? Every time one of his songs would come on I would always think of you. How you would play "Lovelier Than You" and say the only person you could think of is me.

Or maybe it's when we were on our honeymoon, making our way to BC. After all the busyness of getting married, we dropped the ball on music for the drive. Having only one CD to keep us going for 13 hours, which didn't take too long to get old. I laugh and cry as you obnoxiously sing "I Did It Again" by Luke Bryan just trying to stay awake and alert on the twisting mountain roads through the night.

When we became new parents. Our little Olive had a favourite artist, Whitney Houston, and two parents that couldn't sing one note on key. "All At Once" was her personal favorite. Sang over and over again. We were both tired and exhausted but you still would sing with me almost to just let me know we were in this together.

As you start to sing "Alright" by Darius Rucker, I smile because this song with you right now is just us. As we get closer and closer to Lake Erie to vacation with family and friends, I can't help looking forward to what song will be ours next.

Happy 6th Anniversary!

Rob and I celebrated our 6th wedding anniversary on Sunday. There are some days I can't believe that it was 6 years ago we said, I do and other days where I'm asking, "Are you sure it hasn't been longer!?" When I think back to my idea of what marriage looked like when I married my husband, I was pretty naive. Each year I have grown in this relationship. Learned something new with every change along the way. Marriage can bring out the best and the worst all at the same time. 

When I look back on this year, which has been a hard year of change for us, my biggest eye opener is how strong we are capable of being for each other. But, it is a choice we both have to make everyday. Both of us hit lows at different points. In these struggling moments is when I saw our marriage shine. Not because it was easy, not because it didn't hurt, and definitely not because it was pretty. But we looked out for each other in ways that aren't ever clearly defined. No one can prepare you for let downs, set backs, depressions and failures. Now, when I think about those low moments, I remember the shoulder that handled the waves of tears, the cheerleader that never lost their voice, the light in the darkness and the peace that always broke the fight.

I have never loved my husband more! I have never wanted so much to see him succeed and to see him happy. I couldn't be more proud of him, with everything he has had to over come and everything he has yet to achieve. I still stand by him, proud to say he is mine. I am so on board with another year of lows and highs! Isn't the 7th year the hardest? 

Happy Anniversary Babe! I will love you forever and always no matter what is thrown our way! xo Joce

Summer Adjustments

At the start of the summer I came in with all these expectations of late nights, warm days, camp fires, fun and lots of day trips. No more school for Olive and I for these couple months. A chance to do all the things we didn't get a chance to do during the school year. But like most expectations in life, my summer dreams were not even close to the reality. I have found it to be a bit of a process and adjustment these first few weeks of summer to put it lightly.

First week I thought my girls would never get along. First day Maeve punched Olive in the face 3 times. What is happening here!? Finally we got over the hump of them wanting to kill each other and we were hit with the biggest heat wave ever! Now I think I can finally see a light at the end of the tunnel. A summer both the girls and I can finally get on board with. Lots of swimming in Grandma and Grandpa's pool, trips to the splash pad, crafts and painting. I'm starting to realize that day trips and museums might actually not be a good fit for my kids after all. They are a nice treat every now and then but they are truly their happiest long term with lower key days. 

Parenting always seems to have a weird way of slapping you across the face and yelling YOU'RE WRONG! I really just have to laugh at this whole adjustment period because it has been something else. So here is to laughing at myself, taking a step back, and just seeing where this summer heat takes us. Oh and lots of ice cream! I hope you're having an easier time transitioning into this wonderful season. What do you fill your summer days with?